Well after re-reading my last post, I kinda think I was a little negative and focused on how crappy the past was. Yes I was fat. Yes I was not as happy as I could have been. But I didn’t know any better at that time, and you know that old saying “ignorance is bliss”. I was ignorant as to how amazing life can be after losing some poundage. So this is where I’m going to note “Things I noticed now without the 168 lbs”:
1. Bones! Everywhere….what is this collar-bone? My wrists are shrinking so my old bracelets don’t fit. I don’t have to use my necklace extenders anymore either. I remember the day I was on the leg press machine at Zen Fitness and Chelsea was training me. I felt the side of my knee and freaked out! There was this big lump on the side of it. I immediately thought I had hurt something (even though nothing physically hurt at all), and asked Chelsea about it. She responded “well….*head turn to the side*….that’s your knee, we all have them”. Was my knee bone (that’s the medical term) always there, just buried under my warm insulation of fat?! Isn’t that bone going to miss that fat?? Nope! Neither will the rest of my body.
2. Sizes on clothes matter now. I used to go into Lane Bryant and just try on the largest size of something I could find. If I could get it on, I bought it. Now I there are clothes that are too big for me…..totally new! I can not shop at Lane Bryant anymore because everything is too big. Gap is scary, but I’m going to attack the rest of the mall one day (ok maybe not Forever 21).
3. My cat has a lap to lay on. Did my thigh bones get longer? Nope my gut just got smaller. Spike loves the new area to lay on
4. Stress? Handled differently for sure. My stress used to be handled with a large fatty meal, wine and being lazy. Somehow that never helped me deal with my stress. Now I have cardio…..seriously they should rename “cardio” and call it “free therapy”. I have learned to completely zone out and process thoughts better while doing exercise. I finish with a plan in mind on how to accomplish goals and not stress about them. I also finish really sweaty and stinky…but I’m told that’s a good thing 🙂