So when I started these life changes, Carly (my trainer) requested that I keep a journal of my thoughts, experiences, and feelings. I was a diligent student for about a month and then I just could not find time to journal. My handwriting is bad and it wasn’t something that I liked doing. I would prefer chatting about my thoughts and feelings than writing about them. But NOW blogging is way easier! It’s kinda like sending that venting text message to everyone in your phone at one time. I can blog about some experiences and be able to chat with so many people at once. Knowing that people are reading this blog motivates me a lot.
So today I thought I would recap the very first page in my Fat Diary (i.e. the journal Carly wanted me to keep).
This page is very nicely titled “things fat people think about”. I always said that being fat was just a way of life. I did not think it was creating any unhappiness for me, at the time. But now I see that I would constantly make adjustments to my daily life to live as a fat person and now I see that I don’t need to do them. Things like booth sizes in restaurants (Chili’s has huge booths, but Northwest Grill is cramped), seatbelts in cars (I couldn’t buckle a Honda Civic seatbelt, but a Tahoe worked well), waiting room seats with arms on the sides, plastic patio furniture nightmare (haha! I have broken so many of those cheap chairs!), inclines in parking lots, stairs. Lord helped me if I needed to tie my shoe in public! I always had to buy extenders for necklaces. I even had to buy the heavy-duty toilet seat! That was probably too far and crossed some line in the world of blogging, but I’m trying to be as honest as possible. haha!!! “Historic” buildings, have small walkways and doorways (shout out to all of my caterers that have worked in the Thomas Center or Hipp and had to go sideways through those doors!). Ok I think I’m getting the point across.